today i spoke with my best friend again. at least, she used to be. we haven’t spoke for half a year now, and without knowing i now understood that i actually miss her a lot. and i also understood that she wasn’t really the only reason why we suddenly weren’t best friends anymore. a lot of things happened, and even though she could act unfair to me i let it all out on her. and i guess i didn’t realise, until right now actually, that i in a way blamed her for every painful thing that had happened to me the past year. i thought i should be the one to forgive her for all she did, but now i guess we both have to forgive each other. we only talked for a few minutes today, and it was forced upon us. but it made me see how much i REALLY miss her. i hope i’ll get to talk to her soon again.